Iridescent Alvrose

Jika seorang bertanya apa yang kupelajari hari ini, Aku akan berkata... Aku melihat setitik cahaya dari kejauhan Kupikir itulah yang disebut orang sebagai 'harapan' Aku belajar bagaimana mengetahui harapan itu muncul laksana rinai hujan Aku belajar bagaimana merasakan harapan itu tumbuh begitu saja Aku belajar bagaimana aku mulai memupuk harapan melalui untaian kata Aku belajar bagaimana menatap harapan itu tumbuh sempurna Aku belajar bagaimana memberi perhatian lebih bagi harapan yang kuperjuangkan Dan saat waktu berlalu begitu pesat Seperti halnya belajar membaca lalu tiba masanya belajar integral , Mau tidak mau aku juga harus belajar, Bagaimana mengendalikan perasaan Ketika kembang dari harapan yang kuperjuangkan itu tumbang... Pupus... Hanyut dalam lautan asa yang tercabik-cabik. Hilang sudah. Hilang. .

5 tahun yang lalu... Saat dimana aku berusaha menempatkan langkahku di suatu tempat yang jauh dari kampung halaman. Leces, Probolinggo. Desa yang sangat desa. Masih banyak pepohonan rindang disana. Juga persawahan yang luas entah siapa empunya. Ruas-ruas jalan yang membujur salah satunya mengarah pada sekolah berasrama tempatku tinggal. Bertahan hidup dengan menenggak samudera ilmu. Islamic Boarding School Al-Amri... Banyak kenangan yang terukir di tempat itu. Mulai kisah sendu, haru, lucu, miris, sedih, hingga selaksa bahagia. Semua ada. Lengkap sudah telah kualami. Pahit manisnya hidup kucicipi disana. Asyiknya permusuhan, Bodohnya per sahabat an, Manisnya per teman an, semua pernah kulalui.. Pertengkaran, Konspirasi, Uji coba, Fitnah, segalanya aku tahu.. Ah! mulanya aku benci. Tapi entah mengapa aku kini ingin mengulangi masa-masa itu lagi. Mengubah dengan caraku sendiri. Sayangnya hidup tidak ada 'ctrl + Z'... Cukup pelajari dan ambil ibrahnya.. :...

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky I wanna live a day That never dies I wanna change the world Only for you All the impossible I wanna do I wanna hold you close Under the rain I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain I know what's beautiful Looking at you In a world of lies You are the truth And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I'm shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me I wanna make you see Just what I was Show you the loneliness And what it does You walked into my life To stop my tears Everything's easy now I have you here And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I'm shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me In a world without you ...

Apakah hidup membutuhkan alasan? Kadang sesuatu tak dapat dicapai hanya dengan sebuah lambaian tangan Ia butuh pukulan, tendangan, hempasan... Dan ada saatnya ia akan retak dan tak dapat kembali tersusun Itulah dimana titik temu antara imajinasi dan kegilaan.. I'm on the brink of insanity #AR

I can show you the world Shining, shimmering, splendid Tell me, princess, now when did You last let your heart decide? I can open your eyes Take you wonder by wonder Over, sideways and under On a magic carpet ride A whole new world A new fantastic point of view No one to tell us no Or where to go Or say we're only dreaming A whole new world A dazzling place I never knew But now from way up here It's crystal clear That now I'm in a whole new world with you Unbelievable sights Indescribable feeling Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling Through an endless diamond sky A whole new world (Don't you dare close your eyes) A hundred thousand things to see (Hold your breath - it gets better) I'm like a shooting star I've come so far I can't go back to where I used to be A whole new world With new horizons to pursue I'll chase them anywhere There's time to spare Let me share this whole new world with you And in my honest observation During this operation (Oh) ...

I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No, I can't stand the pain How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but noone hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No, I can't How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away...

I woke up it was 7 Waited till 11 just to figure out that no one would call I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them What's another night all alone? When your spending everyday on you own and here it goes [Chorus] I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed Staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And their gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me What the fuck is wrong with me? don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me? Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep and every night is the worst night ever I...

I close the door Like so many times, so many times before Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word I try to sleep, yeah But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me A thousand more regrets unraveling OOoh, if you were here right now, I swear I'd tell you this [Chorus:] Baby, I don't wanna waste another day Keepin' it inside, it's killing me Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you) I wish that I could find the words to say Baby I'ma tell you, every time you leave I'm inconsolable I climb the walls, yeah I can see the edge, But I can't take the fall, no I've memorized the number So why can't I make the call? Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me In the possibility [Chorus] No, no, no I don't wanna be like this I just wanna let you know That everything I hold in Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go) Cause Baby, [Chorus] Don't you know it bab...

Don't pretend you're sorry I know you're not You know you got the power To make me weak inside Girl you leave me breathless But it's okay 'cause You are my survival Now hear me say I can't imagine life Without your love Even forever don't seem Like long enough 'Cause everytime I breathe I take you in And my heart beats again Baby I can't help it You keep me Drowning in your love Everytime I try to rise above I'm swept away by love Baby I can't help it You keep me Drowning in your love Maybe I'm a drifter Maybe not 'Cause I have known the safety Of floating freely In your arms I don't need another lifeline It's not for me 'Cause only you can save me Oh can't you see I can't imagine life Without your love And even forever don't seem Like long enough 'Cause everytime I breathe I take you in And my heart beats again Baby I can't help it You keep me Drowning in your love Everytime I try to rise above I...

Empty spaces fill me up with holes Distant faces with no place left to go Without you within me I can’t find no rest Where I’m going is anybody’s guess I tried to go on like I never knew you I’m awake but my world is half asleep I pray for this heart to be unbroken But without you all I’m going to be is Incomplete Voices tell me I should carry on But I am swimming in an ocean all alone Baby my baby it’s written on your face You still wonder if we made a big mistake I try to go on like I never knew you I’m awake but my world is half asleep I pray for this heart to be unbroken But without you all I’m going to be is Incomplete I don’t meant to drag it on But I can’t seem to let you go I don’t wanna make you face this world alone I wanna let you go (alone) I try to go on like I never knew you I’m awake but my world is half asleep I pray for this heart to be unbroken But without you all I’m going to be is Incomplete Incomplete

Semalam larut menonton film yang diangkat dari buku karya Asma Nadia. “Assalamu’alaikum Beijing”. Sangat sangat sangat awesome.. Bila dilihat secara mayor, film itu lebih banyak membahas about love. Tapi ngga masalah, banyak dan amat banyak pelajaran yang bisa diambil dari sana. Tergantung bagaimana kita melihat, apa yang kita amati, dan sejauh mana kita resapi setiap scene dan kata yang terlontar.  Walau aku bukan pengamat filmografi tidak pula pakar dramatologi, aku mengerti bagaimana seorang pemeran tampak casual dengan perannya, menikmati, dan menghayati perannya. Tidak semata-mata materialistis, tapi mereka memerankan dari hati. Sungguh. Tak dibuat-buat. Mereka bermain peran karena mereka mengerti apa yang harus mereka perbuat terhadapnya. Miris, haru, gundah, hebat sekali dalam memainkannya! Ah! EXCELLENT! Cerita berawal dari seorang muslimah bernama Asmara (biasa dipanggil Asma) yang pergi ke Beijing, China, untuk mencari pekerjaan. Ia suda...

This night, the skies are clear The sparking stars moving quietly over the horizon The moonlight luminescent, want to be a queen of universe For the umpteenth time, I let the cursor flickered on the laptop screen The minutes can’t give me one word of poetry Nothing can give me one No one can change my mind on I just let the sheet empty Like I let my heart blank The friction tree’s twig tonight Like a owl song Frightened. Terrified. Eeried. The home’s not like a home The life’s not like a life Bring me home now The tranquillity of the paradise.

Di tengah bongkahan malam yang semakin larut Aku bersimpuh dihadapan Rabbku yang agung Mengeluhkan apa yang terjadi dengan jiwaku Di riuh rendahnya bumi yang terasa sempit menyesakkan raga Badai menghantam mengempas bebatuan Pasir putih pun tampak kecokelatan Tak rata, dipenuhi batu dalam gelombang Menghanyutkan harapan yang tlah lama di awang Sirnanya mejadikan sirna segalanya Predikat, harta, dan nama baik Termakan waktulah kertas putih tak bernoda Bahkan hingga hilang entah kemana Duhai gerangan, kemana perginya awan? Yang selama ini menjadikanku objek persengketaan Kemana pun perginya kupu-kupu? Yang selama ini menghiasi hidupku dengan desahnya Susah payah aku bangkit dari kemalasan Namun hanya seorang yang memahami apalah sebuah arti dari hidup Apa? Mungkin kau bertanya padaku Pada seseorang yang tak dapat mengatakannya Seorang yang telah melakukan sebuah kesalahan fatal Sebuah tindakan yang tidak seharusnya ia lakukan untuk sa...

Iya. Sebentar lagi ujian. Semangat! :) Sebentar lagi lulus. Selamat! :) Sebentar lagi ngga disini. (bukan minggat) :/ Sebentar lagi................... Sebentar lagi......................... Sebentar lagi............................... ....... .... ... ... .. . Hmmm... :'|

Rupanya aku harus berjuang sendiri Aku akan meraih apa yang seharusnya kuraih Aku kan mengalahkan siapapun yang ingin kukalahkan Aku harus bisa berdiri tegak seorang diri Aku bisa berdiri sendiri! Ah, tidak, tidak... Aku tidak bisa Selalu ada campur tangan suatu hal pada tiap keadaan Ah! Dunia ini hanya bayangan semu bagiku Aku akan menjauh dan terus menjauh Sejauh yang aku inginkan! Aku tak tahu ada apa pada akhirnya...