Iridescent Alvrose

Dalam hati kecilku aku merenungi kalimat itu Ia mungkin kecewa, bisa juga heran sekaligus sangsi Aku memang bukan apa-apa Tapi aku ingin menjadi apa-apa.. Dan disitulah letak kerumitannya. Aku tak mampu. Hari ini raport UTS dibagikan. Sudah kuduga disana adalah nilai yang asli. Dan nilai yang kupermainkan benar-benar tertera disana fiqh : 60 Bahasa Indonesia : 40 Bahasa Inggris : 60 PKn : 42 Bukankah itu deretan nilai yang mengagumkan? aku menyukainya. sekaligus membencinya. Aku ingin memberontak. tapi pada siapa? Aku ingin mengadu. tapi pada siapa? Aku ingin marah. tapi pada siapa? Aku ingin menangis. tapi untuk apa? Itu sudah terjadi dan takkan kembali. Ini benar-benar sebuah kehidupan yang melelahkan Aku sadari itu. Ibuku seorang guru bahasa Indonesia dan tentu akan 'bangga' dengan nilai kursi terbalikku itu. bahkan mungkin, Akan amat sangat 'bangga'! Dan sekarang aku membutuhkan tanda tangannya. ...

Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless Little white flowers will never awaken you Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you Angels have no thoughts of ever returning you Would they be angry if I thought of joining you? Gloomy Sunday Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all My heart and I have decided to end it all Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are said I know Let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go Death is no dream, for in death I'm caressin' you With the last breath of my soul, I'll be blessin' you Gloomy Sunday Dreaming, I was only dreaming I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart here Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you My heart is tellin' you how much I wanted you Gloomy Sunday

Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading From all the things that we are But are not saying Can we see beyond the scars And make it to the dawn? Change the colours of the sky And open up to The ways you made me feel alive The ways I loved you For all the things that never died To make it through the night Love will find you [Chorus] What about now? What about today? What if your making me all I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it’s lost behind words we could never find? Baby before it’s too late   What about now? The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day This broken heart can still survive With a touch of your grace Shadows fade into the light I am by your side Where love will find you [Chorus] Baby before it’s too late What about now? Now that we’re here Now that we’ve come this far Just hold on There is nothing to fear For I am right beside you For all my ...

An empty street, an empty house A hole inside my heart I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller. I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together, oh, yeah. And all my love, I'm holding on forever Reaching for the love that seems so far   [Chorus:] So I say a little prayer And hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love. Over seas from coast to coast To find the place I love the most Where the fields are green to see you once again, my love. I try to read, I go to work I'm laughing with my friends But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking, oh, no.   I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together, oh, yeah.   And all my love, I'm holding on forever Reaching for the love that seems so far [Chorus:] So I say a little prayer And hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are bl...

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight, not a footprint to be seen. A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen. The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside. Couldn't keep it in, Heaven knows I tried. Don't let them in, don't let them see. Be the good girl you always have to be. Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know. Well, now they know! Let it go, let it go! Can't hold it back any more. Let it go, let it go! Turn away and slam the door. I don't care what they're going to say. Let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway. It's funny how some distance, makes everything seem small. And the fears that once controlled me, can't get to me at all It's time to see what I can do, to test the limits and break through. No right, no wrong, no rules for me. I'm free! Let it go, let it go. I am one with the wind and sky. Let it go, let it go. You'll never see me cry. Here ...

I know I can’t take one more step towards you Cause all that’s waiting is regret And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore You lost the love I loved the most I learned to live, half a life And now you want me one more time Who do you think you are Runnin’ round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You’re gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don’t come back for me Who do you think you are I hear you’re asking all around If I am anywhere to be found But I have grown too strong To ever fall back in your arms I learned to live, half a life And now you want me one more time Who do you think you are Runnin round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart You’re gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don’t come back for me Who do you think you are It took so long just to feel alright Remember how to put back the light in my eyes I wish I had missed the first ...

  Do you ever feel like breaking down  Do you ever feel out of place Like somehow you just don’t belong  And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away  Do you lock yourself in your room With the radio on turned up so loud  That no one hears you screaming No you don’t know what it’s like  When  nothing feels all right You don’t know what it’s like  To be like me To be hurt  To feel lost  To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you’re down  To feel like you’ve been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down  And no one’s there to save you No you don’t know what is like  Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else  Are you sick of feeling so left out Are you desperate to find something more  Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate  Are you sick of everyone around With their big fake smiles and stu...

Lagu ini terserah kalian menafsirkannya seperti apa. Bagiku,ini seperti lagu orang kesepian yang jeritan dalam benaknya tidak pernah didengarkan (?)  :o Simple Plan mengibaratkannya seperti seorang astronot. Keren! >>> Can anybody hear me? Or am I talking to myself? My mind is running empty In the search for someone else Who doesn't look right through me. It's all just static in my head Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite? 'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut Sending SOS from this tiny box And I lost all signal when I lifted up Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot Can I please come down? (come down) 'Cause I'm tired of drifting around and round (and round) Can I please come down? I'm deafened by the silence Is it something that I've done? I know that there are millions I can't be the only one who's so disconnected It's so different in my head. Can anybody tell me why ...

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind If only you could heal my heart just one more time Even when I close my eyes There's an image of your face And once again I come to realize You're a loss I can't replace Soledad It's a keeping for the lonely Since the day that you were gone Why did you leave me Soledad In my heart you were the only And your memory lives on Why did you leave me Soledad Walking down the streets of Nothingville Where our love was young and free Can't believe just what an empty place It has come to be I would give my life away If it could only be the same Cause I conceal the voice inside of me That is calling out your name Soledad It's a keeping for the lonely Since the day that you were gone Why did you leave me Soledad In my heart you were the only And your memory lives on Why did you leave me Soledad Time will never change the things you've told me After all we're meant to ...

I'm broken   Do you hear me   I'm blinded , Cause you are everything I see I'm dancing alone, I'm praying   That your heart will just turn around And as I walk up to your door   My eyes turns to face the floor   Cause I can't look you in the eyes and say   When he opens his arms And holds you close tonight   It just won't feel right   Cause I can love you more than this, yeah   When he lays you down, I might just die inside It just don't feel right   Cause I can love you more than this   Can love you more than this   If I'm louder , Would you see me?   Would you lay down in my arms and rescue me?   Cause we are, the same   You saved me, when you leave its gone again   And then I see you on the street   In his arms, I get weak   My body falls I'm on my knees, Praying   When he opens his arms And holds you close tonight   It just won't feel r...

“Permainan telah berakhir, Sherlock.” “Permainan tidak akan penah berakhir, John. Tidak apa-apa. Sang angin timur akan membawa kita pada akhirnya…” “Apa itu?” “Hm. Cerita yang dikatakan padaku ketika aku kecil. Angin timur adalah sebuah kekuatan mengerikan yang menerbangkan sampah pada tempatnya. Menyembunyikan hal yang tidak pantas dan mengambilnya dari bumi. Dan seperti itulah aku.” “Kau orang paling manusiawi yang pernah aku temui, Sherlock.” “Hm. Terimakasih atas waktu-waktu terbaikmu, John.” ˷˷˷˷˷˷˷˷                               Sepotong dialog perpisahan yang mengharukan bagiku. Dialog diatas terkisahkan saat detik-detik berpisahnya Sherlock Holmes dan John Watson. Sepasang sahabat yang menghabiskan waktu mereka dengan kasus-kasus yang terasa semakin mempertajam intuisi dan kecepatan berpikir mereka.     ...

I Ketika di Pekalongan, SMA kelas tiga Ke Wisconsin aku dapat beasiswa Sembilan belas lima enam itulah tahunnya Aku gembira jadi anak revolusi Indonesia Negeriku baru enam tahun terhormat diakui dunia Terasa hebat merebut merdeka dari Belanda Sahabatku sekelas, Thomas Stone namanya, Whitefish Bay kampung asalnya Kagum dia pada revolusi Indonesia Dia mengarang tentang pertempuran Surabaya Jelas Bung Tomo sebagai tokoh utama Dan kecil-kecilan aku nara-sumbernya Dadaku busung jadi anak Indonesia Tom Stone akhirnya masuk West Point Academy Dan mendapat Ph.D. dari Rice University Dia sudah pensiun perwira tinggi dari U.S. Army Dulu dadaku tegap bila aku berdiri Mengapa sering benar aku merunduk kini II Langit akhlak rubuh, di atas negeriku berserak-serak Hukum tak tegak, doyong berderak-derak Berjalan aku di Roxas Boulevard, Geylang Road, ebuh Tun Razak, Berjalan aku di Sixth Avenue, Maydan Tahrir dan Ginza Berjalan aku di Dam, Champs Élysées dan Mesopotamia Di s...

Inilah sajakku, seorang tua yang berdiri di bawah pohon meranggas, dengan kedua tangan kugendong di belakang, dan rokok kretek yang padam di mulutku. Aku memandang zaman. Aku melihat gambaran ekonomi di etalase toko yang penuh merek asing, dan jalan-jalan bobrok antardesa yang tidak memungkinkan pergaulan. Aku melihat penggarongan dan pembusukan. Aku meludah di atas tanah. Aku berdiri di muka kantor polisi. Aku melihat wajah berdarah seorang demonstran. Aku melihat kekerasan tanpa undang-undang. Dan sebatang jalan panjang, punuh debu, penuh kucing-kucing liar, penuh anak-anak berkudis, penuh serdadu-serdadu yang jelek dan menakutkan. Aku berjalan menempuh matahari, menyusuri jalan sejarah pembangunan, yang kotor dan penuh penipuan. Aku mendengar orang berkata: “Hak asasi manusia tidak sama di mana-mana. Di sini, demi iklim pembangunan yang baik, kemerdekaan berpolitik harus dibatasi. Mengatasi kemiskinan meminta pengorbanan sedikit hak asasi” Astaga, tahi kebo apa ini! Apa disangka k...

Tujuh kali aku pernah mencela jiwaku. Pertama kali ketika aku melihatnya lemah, padahal seharusnya ia bisa kuat. Kedua kali ketika melihatnya berjalan terjungkit-jungkit di hadapan orang yang lumpuh. Ketiga kali ketika berhadapan dengan pilihan yang sulit dan mudah ia memilih yang mudah. Keempat kalinya, ketika ia melakukan kesalahan dan coba menghibur diri dengan mengatakan bahwa semua orang juga melakukan kesalahan. Kelima kali, ia menghindar karena takut, lalu mengatakannya sebagai sabar. Keenam kali, ketika ia mengejek kepada seraut wajah buruk padahal ia tahu, bahwa wajah itu adalah salah satu topeng yang sering ia pakai. Dan ketujuh, ketika ia menyanyikan lagu pujian dan menganggap itu sebagai suatu yang bermanfaat. xoxo @parsleymint_

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate: Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer's lease hath all too short a date: Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines, And often is his gold complexion dimm'd; And every fair from fair sometime declines, By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd; But thy eternal summer shall not fade Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest; Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade, When in eternal lines to time thou growest: So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this and this gives life to thee. (1609)